Enticement of a Wild Existence

Being full and still wanting

Being uncertain but still clear

The desire of pursuit is always present but oh so disappointing and exhausting

It gives me hope and takes it away

It turns me on, then drops me dead

Being aware and yet completely oblivious

Being tuned in yet completely numb

The enticement of a wild existence is stirring but just out of grasp

It makes my heart beat and makes it still

It catches me in fantasy and sits with me in reality

The contradiction of my soul

Wanting both, wanting and, wanting with, wanting for

Something fascinating, something interesting

Something closer to being alive

Closer still